1/1/03 - 3:00AM
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Resolution: Be generally happier and in a better mood.
So, it's now 2003. It's absolutely weird. This is supposed to be a time where you look back and really think about all the memories and obstacles of the past 365 days. Each day's some opportunity for personal growth and stuff.
Except, that's not how I'm feeling about all of it. Last year just seemed like 365 opportunites to be sick and waste away life in bed. I don't seem to count time passing anymore, but days till I'm sick again.
But that's it then. I'm not gonna remain living like I'm just going to wither away. Clarissa told me that I need to really examine my life and just see all the good there is: my friends, my family, and especially James.
I'm actually really disappointed that I won't see Clarissa this week but she does need a vacation too. I'll see her in a few weeks anyway.
Right now, I'm just lying in bed. James dropped me off because I wasn't feeling good anymore but he had to go back.
I'm actually so exhausted right now that I better go to bed.
[TO BE DONE IN A HAND-WRITTEN JOURNAL] |
