2/24/03 - 11:30PM
I think I’m the worst person in the world. I had lunch with Peter today even though I really shouldn’t have. And what makes it so much worse is that after lunch, he kissed me and I did nothing to stop it. Everything was supposed to be over between us so I don’t really know why I started emailing and talking to him again and how I could possibly have let it get this far again. He has a wife and family and even though I know that and I love James, I’m still very attracted to him. I don’t know what to do. I know I need to talk to James about this, but I just don’t know when… or even how.
